I think it’s killed me.
How come nobody warns you about this feeling
I wish there was a way to articulate it
I feel like there are so many things pulling me back but I know that I must remain here. I never thought I’d have to feel this way again,
Apparently I’m being strong but why do I feel so weak?
I don’t want to be here right now, I don’t deserve to be treated this way & I am better then this. But I know I’ll be back, I’ll return to it until it kills me.
It’s killing me. & I hate it but I can’t leave.
I dreamt about snakes.
A little one bit me & then another one bit me after & I didn’t know until it was too late.
"What Does it Mean to Dream about Snakes?
To get start interpreting what dreaming about snakes means, here are the most common meanings associated with snakes in dreams:
A snake is a symbol of the unconscious
Snakes or serpents indicate you’re in the process of healing and resolving issues
The snake is a symbol for an untamed part of yourself or an untapped resource
Snakes could represent your intuition or spiritual aspects of yourself; your instinctual drive, what moves you from the depths of your soul
Snakes or serpents tend to show up in dreams in times of transition and transformation
From the classic Freudian perspective, a snake or serpent is a phallic symbol
Generally, a snake featured in a dream means that you’re dealing with a difficult situation or unsettling emotions in your waking life. On the positive side of this dream analysis, dreaming of snakes could also mean that healing and transformation are taking place.”
My mother gets herself so worked up & angry & I’ll never understand it. We’re quite similar but I am very thankful for our differences.
I am trying to get Tristan to buy me a ring. I’m not sure if he thinks I deserve it, I’m not sure if I even think I deserve it. But. I want it.
Apple Cider Vinegar shots & coconut oil before bed.
I rearranged my bedroom by myself today, I feel like it’s all coming together again. I lose it sometimes, but then I return to myself & it’s ok again. I dunno.